I am 10 lbs heavier and happier. I am healthier in mind and body because I have learned how to let go of relationships that don’t respect and reflect my values, say no to activities that don’t align with my purpose, choose my battles wisely, and be content to rely on God’s grace each day. Grace to accept that God’s thoughts are higher than my thoughts, grace to forgive, grace to do what I have to do even if I don’t want to get out of my comfort zone. Grace to eat better, sleep soundly and be physically active. More importantly, I have learned to be happy with my appearance, to be content with my lot in life, not seeking anyone’s approval and couldn’t care less about popularity, what I wear, how I look or even what accolades I have in order to impress anyone because I have reached that point in my life where I no longer have to seek anyone’s approval to affirm that I am loved, wanted and needed because I have found my identity in Christ alone. I am not impressed by wealth, fame, luxurious things and the like because they are nice to have, they make life comfortable but they are nothing compared to living a peaceful life. That being said, God gave me the peace that transcends all understanding in the midst of tragedy that got me through the last decade safely, wholly, joyful and grateful ❤️
While almost everyone else was binge watching K-drama over the lockdown, I was too busy working long hours, from 6am to 12 midnight. I didn't realize that I have allowed people to overstep the boundaries of my time. I would get frantic calls from anxious patients, caregivers and whoever needs me at an ungodly hour. I would do my best to help them calm down while I was crying inside my heart. I was emotionally, mentally and physically burned out after 8 long months. I began to resent the internet (online meetings and webinars were too much!) yet oh so grateful for it because it kept me connected to the people I love and it enabled me to work while many have unfortunately lost their jobs. It was on my birthday weekend in November 2020 that I finally had precious time to spare after months of striking a balance between taking care of my patients, remotely working for my family's businesses, ministry, coping as much as I could (because I terribly missed my family) and keeping my s...
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