My Cup Runneth Over

Some time before I turned 40 this year, I asked God how He would summarize the past 4 decades of my life and this Bible verse was impressed on me:

"My cup runneth over..." - Psalm 23:5

I broke down in tears for indeed that was how my life was and how I felt at that moment. I couldn't find the words to describe my experiences and my feelings until the Holy Spirit reminded me of these four words.

I went on and grabbed my journal in the middle of the night and scribbled my heart away:

Confident in God’s grace and care, with joy I reflect I have a Shepherd.

My greatest abundance is this:

By faith I taste the goodness of God in all my enjoyments.

Though I have but little of this world, it is a green pasture.

The Lord gives me peace and contentment in the mind, wherever the lot is.

My consolations are the still waters where the Holy Spirit leads me,

whose streams flow from the Fountain of living waters.

I feast at the Lord’s table, upon the provisions of His love.

I drink from the cup of my salvation which is forever full.

My past experiences taught me to trust that the goodness and

mercy of the Lord will follow me all the days of my life.

It is my desire and purpose to seek my happiness

in the service of God here and know that I hope to

enjoy His love for all eternity through Christ Jesus in heaven.

Before that night, I was already getting a headache thinking about whether or not to host a party for my birthday. I was also at a lost as to what, where and how I should do it. Honestly, all I wanted to do was go to a secluded place and sleep. The passage reminded me that I love tea and fine bone China and so without hesitation, I decided to host an intimate tea party with my inner circle. Truly when you seek first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness, all things will be added unto you.

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