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I was devastated when my Amah passed away while I was in the US in 2017. She couldn’t wait for me. I was just gone for I think 9 days. I
had no courage to visit her grave for two years as the thought of it would render me paralyzed from pain and bawling like a baby. 
A few nights ago, while I was putting my nephew Noah to sleep, he requested to see some photos: “Akoh there will be four chapters tonight. Mom and dad’s wedding, the reception, when I was born and when Tai Ma died.” 
I replied: "Photos of Tai Ma’s death will make me cry Noah.” 
To my astonishment, he lovingly said: “It’s ok Akoh, there is life everlasting in heaven because Jesus died for our sins to save us.” 
I hugged him so tight. It took an innocent 6-year old to remind me that someday I will be reunited with my beloved Amah.
Finally, I found the courage to visit and I was at peace. 


As I was doing my quiet time tonight, I came across this passage: 
He will wipe every tear from their eyes, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying or pain. All these things are gone forever.” - Revelation 22:4 
For those of you who terribly miss departed loved ones, may you find comfort through God’s gift of eternal life ❤️

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